Monday, May 11, 2020

I Choose...

About a week and a half ago I was cleaning Chuck's incision and noticed what looked like two new satellite nodules just outside the incision site. When we met with the radiologist he believed they were cancerous. And when we met with the surgeon today for a post-op appointment she took biopsies of them both and said there might be a total of seven.

We've learned Chuck has Stage 3 Desmoplastic Melanoma, a rare and aggressive skin cancer. He is scheduled for an MRI this Friday to find out if the cancer has spread any more and once we get the results from that we'll be able to figure out the best treatment options.

If I let myself really think about it it becomes overwhelming and scary and I can't think of anything else...

But when I put it in the Lord's hands, when I pour out my heart to Him and remember that my God is so much bigger and greater than cancer, I truly feel better. After all, He hung the moon in the sky and told it to control the ocean tides. He can definitely handle a few rebellious cells in the human body!

So... I choose to be happy.
To just go on living our lives as normal. 
That may change as treatments take over but for now...
I choose happy.

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I had a wonderful Mother's Day this weekend. We did drive-through for lunch with Sharaya and Allie (they were in their car) and then we went to the Centennial Trail about 45 minutes from our house. They rode bikes while the 3 of us walked. They came together for a few seconds for a photo then they were off again! It was such a warm day and felt so good to be outside. And there was no one around so no masks!






 How was your weekend? 
Did you try to get together with family?

11 comments:

Rebecca Jo said...

Oh no... Im' so sorry... Will be praying for peace & health for your husband!!!

Cate said...

that feels like scary news...I will be thinking of you all.

Caz said...

Lots of love to you Cindy

Saimi said...

Holy Cow Cindy I'm sorry to hear about Chuck. It is true, God is in control and good for you for choosing 'Happy' What a wonderful Mother's Day, the hike looks absolutely stunning and the weather, wow it sure cooperated. How nice to be out in the fresh air with no one around. Hang in there, you'll be in my thoughts and prayers!

ellen b. said...

Sorry to hear about this latest news for Chuck and you. It's good to know the one who holds all of our futures in His Hands. May God bless you and keep you.

Anonymous said...

So sorry to read this news. Sending healing thoughts and praers.

16 blessings'mom said...

I'm sorry you got such scary news. But you are right, God hung the moon, and made this earth, and he hears our prayers. I'll be praying for your husband, and you and your family. I'm glad you got out and enjoyed some good weather. Keep looking up:)
Della

Jeanie said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Chuck. That's scary indeed and it seems as though you've all been really slammed lately. You'll be in my prayers. You are wise to choose to be happy, to be upbeat. It doesn't mean you aren't allowed to have bad days but keeping hope and joy front center is a big help in in moving forward.

Our Mother's Day was nice but uneventful. No kids or toddlers. But it was ok.

Debby@Just Breathe said...

((Hugs)) Sending prayers your way and asking God to watch over Chuck.

Pamela M. Steiner said...

Praying for your hubby now. May the Lord touch and heal those places on his body, and may they not find any more anywhere. Praying for peace of mind, and strength. So glad that you had a good Mother's Day and were able to be with your family and enjoy some sunshine and fresh air. Praying that God will continue to give you peace and grace in the days ahead.

Barb said...

Hi Cindy~

So, so sorry. I will be keeping your family in my prayers, especially Chuck. I pray that he will have the strength to overcome this new diagnosis. You are so right, God is so much bigger than cancer.

Your photos were beautiful, and spending time with family is always the best medicine!

Hugs and Love,
Barb