But last weekend she wrote something that made me stop for a minute.
"What are you doing in my life Jesus and I don't know what wrong with me and heal my heart right now Jesus."
I brought it home and showed it to Chuck, we had no idea what she might be talking about.
Then the other day I was going to Target and I asked her if she wanted to come and she said, "No." I was shocked. "Why Beth?" She just shrugged her shoulders, "I don't know." Target is one of her all-time favorite stores and she doesn't want to go? Then I began to put the pieces together and realized she may be depressed.
She's been unemployed for 9 months now.
Her boyfriend recently got a job.
He doesn't go to All Aboard on Wednesdays anymore.
She sits at home 5 days a week.
No wonder she's feeling depressed.
So yesterday I told her we were going out. We went to Revelations Yogurt and sat outside. The weather was gorgeous! Then I asked her if she wanted to go to the beach. "Okay." We went and sat on a bench for almost an hour and when I asked her if she was ready to go or should we sit for a few more minutes, she said, "A few more minutes."
I was more than happy to sit there with her. We watched the Washington State Ferry come and go, we watched the people play in the water and we watched the tide come in.
I know taking her out for yogurt isn't going to magically make the depression go away but I'm hoping I can start getting her out more and adding some new things to her life. I talked to her job coach and she's still trying to get Beth an interview at McDonalds.
Her prayer request proves she's aware of the changes happening in her. I haven't talked to her about it yet but I plan to in the next few days. Not quite sure what to say actually.
I am hoping though that it's just in the beginning stages and with prayer and a new job and some changes in her life, it won't take hold and become worse.